Modest Encounter
When my office was moved to another place, I had to walk a lot, from the bus stop to reach my office. One day I was completely minding my own business, and a saw a man on the other side of the double road, I noticed him because he was trying to hide his face. I didn't bother, and kept on walking. This same man crossed me over and stopped his motorbike on the side. When I walked past him, he said something to me, I just couldn't forgive. Not in a million years.
He dared saying to me, "Nice b*obs, dear". My blood pressure was shooting, and I walked away, and then I thought to myself, why the hell he dared such a thing. And I walked back to him, and said what came to my mouth. As soon as I confronted him, he started his motorbike and ran away, without revealing his face. And I still don't remember his face. Even if he comes in front of me, I won't be able to recognize him.
And then I looked at my surroundings, and I saw men, who were already staring at me. But nobody dared to ask me, what that man did to me, or said to me, that I shouted so much. I was astonished, that none of them asked me about my well being, absolutely none of them. And I went to my office.
I cried that day a lot. When my Boss entered the office, I told him what has happened, and then I asked him firmly, do you think, I'm showing my body to men? Am I not covered enough? He said No to both. Then I asked again, alright, then why he said that to me. What went wrong. What did I do? Is it my fault? He said it wasn't my fault, that man is a criminal. And I shouldn't think about these things anymore.
Years after that incident, my therapist told me, that men often target women with low confidence. And when I think about that moment, I do know what he actually meant by that. As a victim of sexual harassment, I did have anxiety, which manifested in the way I talked and walked. And I didn't realize what is wrong with me. But people around me noticed it. But they couldn't understand the reason behind it.
In other words, sexual harassment, has such a deep impact on a person, that once the trauma is gone. This very person becomes unrecognizable. But of course, some people say, it's a demonic possession. The truth is, trauma lives everywhere, and almost nobody is doing anything about it. They are just living with it. One should never make peace with the Trauma, rather banish it from the body forever. For that, post traumatic therapy is recommended, and sadly most people, don't know anything about it.
Peace
Damsel in Distress.
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